I have realized a lot of things now that I have took sometime to reflect back on my life. I realize that my life could have been a lot worse than it was and I have a lot to be thankful for. A person keeps maturing over the years and life is suppose to get easier to live. I know that I am the only person who can make my life easier to deal with and put all past issues into perspective. I truly now know that I can get past the issues that I have been dealing with and move forward to enjoy what years I have left on this earth. I know that being kind and good hearted are 2 good qualities that I have and will continue to have. I have always cared about other people and how they feel and I believe there is nothing wrong with that. I realize that I can't let what other people say about me bother me because it is only words. As long as I feel good about myself that is what truly counts. I know that I am a good person and I have good qualities about myself and that I am a loving person. We are all here on earth with a purpose and I believe that by telling others what I have been through that is one of my purposes on earth. If I can help just one person I will have accomplished a great thing. If I can help one woman from making the same mistakes that I did in life I feel I will have served a great purpose here on earth. I hope that I can keep someone from giving their love to someone who does not want it and keep them from wasting their love on someone who does not love them. I really want for people to know that through everything I have been through I deeply regret not always putting my children first.