I have thought about times when I could not smile. All I could do was cry. I wanted so desperately to be happy and have a smile on my face. I have those smiles now and I am happier than ever. I think back to times when all I had was a fake smile on my face and nothing more. The things that make me smile most are my husband and my children. It is all about family to me. Or when I see a baby in the store and think about when mine were little. And then I remember that I can't have anymore. My smiles now are when my children give me a hug and tell me they love me. Or when my husband says something funny to me or when the family dog does something amazing. Those are the things that bring me smiles today. Being able to enjoy life once again and not be sad. When my flowers bloom and my grass is green and it is such a beautiful day. When I talk to my grandson on the phone and he calls me grandma and says I love you that is the biggest smile of all to me.