Who am I now ?

Story ID:	884
Written by:	Catherine AimeeRuth Grainger (bio, link, contact, other stories)
Story type:	Poem
Location:	Mauston Wisconsin United States
Year:	1988
Person:	Cathi Olson/Grainger

WHO AM I NOW

Not so long ago, I was only me
I have changed, I know
The differences I can see
Once, I was strong
Afraid of only fear
Now I know I was wrong
I fear each falling tear
In this crowd I stand
Laughing with my friends
Cigarette held in shaking hand
The loneliness never ends
So many times before
I’ve turned and run away
But there’s no where to run anymore
Yet, in this life, I can not stay
My tears are all that’s left
I lost all the rest, I don’t know how
Even my sanity someone else kept
So I’m asking you, who am I now?