Even when I fail

Even when I fail, I am still a success

For a while since I’d left you
You’d been so sweet and kind
Listening, at least pretending to
To the thoughts that crossed my mind

Laughing and talking with me
Yet still giving me my space
As if you believed, in whom I want to be
Was it hard to lie right to my face?

Yesterday, the mask you wear
Slipped and I could see
That you don’t really care
And have no sense of honesty

For years, my dreams went neglected
While yours were nurtured with pride
Until even I no longer respected
The talents I had set aside

Though, after I had found a way
To have a life and a home
And to prove, to your dismay
That I could make it on my own

You must’ve been just waiting upon
What seemed the perfect chance
To pull out the rug I’ve been standing on
So you could take the victors stance

But I will not give up, or in
My future does not rest with you
Nor is my life a game to win
Only I will decide what I will do

A failure is only a moment
No more than a set-back
I won't allow myself the torment
Or you to nudge me off-track

Because even when I fail sometimes
I still have other dreams
Not one of them is yours, just mine
And none as trivial as you'd like them to seem

Story ID:	3178
Written by:	Catherine AimeeRuth Grainger (bio, link, contact, other stories)
Story type:	Poem
Location:	Mauston Wisconsin United States
Year:	2007
Person:	The ex