We SHALL Overcome

Thoughts from Debbi Denis(c) 2005

We SHALL Overcome!

I have been reading many emails today
and my heart is breaking for you.
YET there is joy in the wonderful praises
and we do serve a mighty God.

God has said in His word that
HE will NEVER leave us or forsake us.
He will take care of our needs when
we put the kingdom first.

I have had so many trust issues
and its hard to put someone first
and not lean on my own understanding.
BUT I am believing the scripture
that says God uses everything
that is meant for evil and turns
it around to our good!
To add on to that he says-
I know the plans I have for you not to harm you
but to give you hope and a future.

I too have battled with suicidal thoughts.
When Ed first left me I wanted to pull out in front
of a transfer truck and just die.
Then I thought what about my beautiful daughters-
who would take care of them?
I then thought,
well I will take them with me.
WOW! What an awful thought.
Not only was I going to ruin Gods plan for my life
but what if I was taking a little
Paula White or Joyce Myers with me?
I did not care about that-
I just wanted it all to be done and over with.
No more pain- no more heartache-
no more anything.
Soon after that episode,
came a realization that I was not in love
with my husband-
I was obsessed with him.
I felt I could not go on any longer without him.

What a crock of bull straight from hell.

I am who I am with or without my husband.
I am who I am with or without my home.
I am who I am with or without
all the treasures of this world.

Story ID:	245
Written by:	Debbi Denis (bio, contact, other stories)
Story type:	Musings, Essays and Such
Location:	SE Georgia US
Year:	2005