Medicinal Cocktail

A million racing thoughts running avidly through my mind
Difficult keeping up with the multiple ideas, particularly hard to find
Needing to suppress the notions, all but maybe one or two
Trying to comprehend all the visuals; something clearly unable to do

Impossible to focus entirely on one single subject at hand
Frustration, anxiety and panic attacks soon to be in high demand
Hone in on one topic; let the rest simply fade they say
Words easily spoken when you’re not living this from day to day

Did you take your medication, or did you “forget” to do so once again?
Let me find them for you, it seems your moodiness is about to set in
I don’t need or want this poison which is prescribed upon to me
All is need is kindness and care and allow me to be drug free

Free from this medicinal cocktail I’m forced to consume every day
Free from all of the criticism; the “know it all” persona you portray
Feed me love and guidance, not medications which leave me semi comatose
I promise this time will be different; I’ll behave without any room to boast

I know in the past I have stumbled and obviously let you down
But if you give me just this one wish, my actions will be sane and sound
I want to live my life again, not needing their drugs of choice every day
I want to be able to think clearly just once, without this hazy cloud of gray

Give me this one wish and I vow to you, I’ll behave myself this time
I never thought begging you not to take drugs would be my life of crime
Maybe this time will be different and maybe I won’t need to feed
On this poisonous medicinal cocktail created entirely just for me

© Stacy Lynn Stiles

Story ID:	2363
Written by:	Stacy Lynn Stiles (bio, contact, other stories)
Story type:	Poem
Location:	Tomah WI USA
Year:	2007
Person:	Stacy L Stiles