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| Story ID: | 2082 |
| Written by: | Veronica Elizabeth Foust (bio, contact, other stories) |
| Story type: | Biography |
| Writers Conference: | $500 2007 Family Memories Writing Project |
| Location: | Greensboro North Carolina USA |
| Year: | 2007 |
| Person: | Veronica Foust |
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Visitors| Stephanie and I had been talking on the phone but there seem to be a lot of time in between our calls. I wanted more from our relationship than she did. She wanted me to be like a second mother and I could not do that. I was hurt that she did not want to think of me as her mother. I felt like that after 28 years of her being with her adopted family she could give us some time to get closer and get to know each other. I really feel that she had not been straight with either family. She never told her adopted parents that she wanted to find me. This made me feel like sha was ashamed of me. She acted like she was really excited at first but then she changed as time went by. She made me feel like she really did not want to know me. She said that I still thought of her as that 4 month old baby girl and maybe she was right but I feel like I at least deserved to be her mother. I am said to say that we ended all contact with each other. But at least I know that she is alive and doing well. I also know that I have another grandson out there in the world and I love them both very much. Some birth parents never even get the chance to see their birth children and I am very blessed to at least had the chance to see her and tell her that I love her very much. I had a hard time accepting it at first but I have been able to move forward with my life. Maybe one day we will talk to each other again. Some people will think it is my fault and that I should have did things her way and that is fine we are all entitled to our own opinion. I feel that having 4 children after her was my main reason for feeling the way I do. I am not use to being a second mother to my own children. But at least I got to tell her what happened to cause her to be placed for adoption and hopefully she does understand. |
